How many times am I going to have to make this decision?

Seattle.

For some reason, this city has been calling out to me for the past 5 or more years, but each and every time I eventually decide that Portland is the place for me. Well, here we go again, only this time it seems that I am being physically catapulted in its direction. I either go up there for some sort of guarantee, or stay down here with possibly nothing. Do I really want to leave my family, my neighborhood, my place that I am finally in love with? Luckily for me my immediate family would come with me.. but my network would stay here. My town would stay here. Other than that though, I have nothing here that won't be there..

I don't have to make a decision until January, but the indecision is driving me close to batty.

*sigh*

Undergrad No More.

Its a weird feeling. Graduating from college. Being finished with a seemingly life long goal. But to be honest, it doesn't even feel as if anything has changed. I am supposed to be "educated" now, right? Not to say that I didn't learn anything in my years at the university, but I think that the most important thing that I learned was a poignant life lesson that I hope to instill in everyone: Don't go to private schools unless you are prepared to pay for them in the end. While all my credits from The Art Institute did transfer to WSU so they were not wasted per se, had I gone to WSU the entire time it would have saved me thousands of dollars in the end in tuition costs.
Now I stand motionless in the wind. Graduate school? What would I study? To take a break means student loan payments will be due June 7th, but not knowing exactly what I want to do makes it difficult to decide on a school, let alone be happy and willing to add even more debt to the pile.
I do love Psychology and what it intails. I think I would do good in a counseling setting, maybe in an elementary school or something to that effect. But shouldnt I KNOW if it was something that I REALLY wanted to do? Maybe I should just continue to work my way up the ladder at my current place of employment..
There are no guarantees after I finish grad school anyways..
But will I be happy with simply a BS?
Decisions, Decisions...

Medical School?

What I am thinking about right now is….

Graduate School!!

Or more specifically, how I am going to pay for it.
I am finding out that there is a misconception that college students have a lot of money. Or have access to a lot of money. The test to get into Graduate school itself (GREs) is $140 and the test to get into Medical school (MCATs) is $210.
The first thing I have to do is decide whether I want to become a Neuroscientist (PhD) or a Psychiatrist (MD) or whether its really worth paying $25k/year to become either of those. After doing salary comparisons and seeing that a job that pays $72k/year really only pays $49k/year after taxes or that a job that pays $170k/year really only pays $113k/year it makes me really second guess things and makes my decision even more difficult (it doesn't make my decision to NOT work in Oregon very difficult however). Altho, I must say that the $113 sounds much much better than the $49. The $49 would not be worth it in any way shape or form.
Does that make my decision for me?
Should it be all about the money?
Or what I want to do?
The neuroscience program does sound very interesting, especially since my dream since childhood has been to be a medical researcher… but I could be a medical researcher with the other program too, it will just be more difficult. There is a reason it pays more… now the question would really be: Can I get into Med school? I think I can, but I had better start studying. Those MCATs do not look easy!